ST. Therese, I am feeling an all time low. By myself , have a pacemaker and lucky
to have it and it is working. I feel anything, I eat a feel bloated on the stomach.
I eat very little and gain, I watch all I eat and always have.
I am on all heart medicines, and wish it would go away. My family is out west, my only
sibling, my sister. Married 51 years and I am alone. I feel lost, I cared for my parents
all my life and lived with them. They are gone nearly 7 years ago. I hear from her,
sometimes daily and other days, days go by. She is always busy, and her kids are
not living at home and still unmarried, 28 and 32. Niece, never calls, never called me for my
birthday, forget a card or a gift. Have not seen it in years. Nephew, slightly more caring.
I go out of my way, and make a small package for their birthdays. Niece, I skipped this year.
I get a basic gift and gift card from parents and wrapped in maybe two minutes or less. I wish
one day to open a package made fancy and nice for a change. I have both eyes that need
surgeries coming soon. Cataracts and a cornea smoothing also needed. I am down about
that, my eyes have been poor eyesight all my life from maybe first grade. Removing cataract
won't solve it, I need glasses all my life. I am very grateful, I can see with the only bifocal lens that I can still see with. The eye doctor, had me try a stronger lens. All smeared.
I feel hopeless, wish blessings.